PAINS OF INDIFFERENCE
The search goes on
And I hope I choke on every word I fucking wrote
Grant that I may find peace in this world
Peace at last, lay this weary heart to rest
I want to be no more...
Through these days, I can push on
But I'm afraid the fucking meaning is gone
No longer can I bear to think
Disenchanted by memories of countless failures and unrequited love
I've been self-condemned to wander this disgusting world
Graceless, godless, void of any faith
Only to find nothing at the end of the rope
I want to be no more...
Through these nights, I lay in wait
My heart burns to forget
Alone, alone at last
Alone in this fucking world
Is this truly what I want?
When her eyes mean nothing to me the stars mean nothing to me
And I cannot find the will to breathe
The search goes on...